That fact im more upset about you goin away than I was when I finnished with my ex means so much. Thoes messages you send me, the things u say at the right time but most of all knowing u care so much about me. I may look and act confident but really im hoping what u say is true that u will come back and things can be the same as they were. Cause I love every minute
Why is it everything suddenly hits you like a tone of bricks one minute everything is fine until that one thing messes it all up and brings things up in your head you didnt think were bothing me that much! Its just a job why am I letting it get to me so much. Bitchy comments dont usally get to me but right now it hurts. And knowing that you adore me means so much and I love the feeling someone cares about me. Even when I did love someone it didnt seem like they cared but you really do and I can see that!!
I am having possably the biggest most exciting and nerve ranking day of my life today flying to london MYSELF then interview gor virgin!! My god its been my dream to be one of thoes girls I want this so bad.